Ignoring women
Two things I always failed to understand are God and Women. Though it is very easy to ignore God, ignoring women is not that easy.
I had spend my childhood days in outskirts of a town along with locals, and hence was very much protected. Possibly this was the reason why I had very few friends. That was seen in my solitary behaviour at schools. A studious kid, very serious, shy of girls - so sincere :)
We shifted our residence, but my friends were very limited and no girls! College days werent different either. Though this time I had started working with a NGO, which opened me up; as my mom says. I had so many friends now. But still no girls. I am so sincere!
Coming to age, I did had a number of crushes, but I could never start a conversation. It couldn’t go beyond my peculiar friendly smile :) One of my crush, who happened to be my practical partner, I dont remember talking to her even during the lab practicals. The scene continued till my first year of engineering. I dont think I was too shy, but I had never talked to girls before. I could never understand them. I shifted to IIT, the situation turned to be worse. With very low girls to boys ratio, there had been days and days in continuation when I dont remember talking to a female! During the second year, I met a junior schoolmate of mine and it later turned into infatuation. I had managed to somehow converse this time. We never went into a relationship, but our friendship continued a couple of years. However it was only in the final year of my IIT stay, I couldnt tolerate a prank which she and her boyfriend did with me. I havent talked to her till today. That happened to be the end of my any quest for a relationship or understanding women. Next 3 years of my job experience, I had no female friends. Apart from some official conversation with some clients, collegues, only conversation I had with any girl was my mom or my cousins. And the fact remained, I never tried to understand women.
During the same period, I noticed my friends caught in relationships and fights-break ups subsequently. I always felt, I am better single! I continued to have number of crushes, however this time I didnt even try for any friendship. Women are still alien to me.
Until very recently when my relatives and family have started dragging me in conversation about my marriage- I feel so intimidated. I could not think about a relationship with a person, whom I don’t understand. Situations again forcing me to understand women.
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